Optimistic or Pessimistic

Today I am definitely different from yesterday.
I always feel lost in the crowd surrounded by strangers...drowning...
I am trying to grab on somebody but I see no one for me.
Life journey is rather lonely.
I don't know anyone here.
I don't even know myself.

I am changing...taking up the appearance I wanna be...and slowly I forget who was me?
It doesn't matter...

I was told to be optimistic and I do believe I am.
But sometimes I am doubt... am I?
What's behind my laughter? who knows?
Or perhaps I am just too pessimistic to this world...
Nothing seems to bother me because reality is too sorry to be known.
Well, I am dying very soon.
And this is the reason cheers me.

World of Organization - Boss are all bad?

"Organization", based on my understanding is a structure that enabling one man stepping on hundreds or thousands of others head.. Not a good nor bad issue to discuss here.. but its a system to magnify the man power in order to complete something huge or achieve some mission..therefore, the man step on the top is the manager...while those working under his command with wages are employees...

A study surveyed over a million employees and 80,000 managers which had conducted by Gallup Organization for 25 years, was published in a book called First, Break All the Rules: What the World's Greatest Managers Do Differently... an interesting book with surprising finding...

Says to a company...
If you are losing good people, look to their immediate boss. Immediate boss is the reason people stay and thrive in an organization. And he is also the reason why people leave. When people leave they take knowledge, experience and contacts with them, straight to the competition.

"People leave managers not companies"

HR experts say that of all the abuses, employees find humiliation the most intolerable. The first time, an employee may not leave, but a thought has been planted. The second time that thought gets strengthened. The third time, he looks for another job. When people cannot retort openly in anger, they do so by passive aggression. By digging their heels in and slowing down. By doing only what they are told to do and no more. By omitting to give the boss crucial information.

"If you work for a jerk, you basically want to get him into trouble. You don 't have your heart and soul in the job."

Different managers can stress out employees in different ways - by being too controlling, too suspicious, too pushy, too critical, but they forget that workers are not fixed assets, they are free agents.

Yet, unsatisfied employee would wonder how "the boss" can be the boss?? why the company or the organization appoint he or she as "the boss"? Yes, this is how the "Organization" system works, the top can never hear from the most bottom, because there are so many filters blocking at the middle..and in fact the organization has purposely set up these filter.. there are never such a reason that manager be fired because employees are not satisfy with his way of treating the staffs...

"Talented men leave. Dead wood doesn't"

So, if you are consider yourself a talent, choose for better employer OR stay to learn how to kiss the ass of the boss and be patient.. waiting for an opportunity to rule the organization yourself..

Good luck.

Life is all about love

Great love and great achievements involve great risk.

I wonder how I would be when I am age 70?
I used to make my mum angry and sad. I thought I am not closed to her. She knows nothing about me. As time pass by, she get older and older, and I just realized the last time we hug each other was my age 10. Once before I have a lots of friends, I enjoyed my time with friends, they were all I had... I hate my family, I don't like my mum, I teased my brothers were useless and dump. But, one day I realize friends would have to be separated one day but your family is always there for you no matter how much you hate them. Then, life will teach you the lesson.

What we needs is actually very simple -- attention.
Kids need attention, so as adults and old folks need attention.
We want somebody to look at us. When we love someone, we are actually paying attention to somebody and in return, we need to be attended too. In other words, we need company, we need joys, we need affection, we need love and beloved. But, there are risk that if we are grief to someone or attached to someone, we are exposing to risk of getting hurt or sadness if the situation change or the someone leave. So, shall we hold back?

In Buddhists, everything is impermanent.

We have to experience the life ourselves, let the good or the bad penetrate fully, then only you learn how to leave it. Take any emotion, love for a woman, grief for a loved one or fear and pain from death...if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them, you can never get to being detached, you are afraid of pain, afraid of the grief and afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails.

Allow yourself to dive in the emotions, experience them fully and completely. Then you know what pain is, what love is and what grief is...then only you can say, "Alright, I have experienced that emotion, I knew it, so I can detach from that emotion now."

I have let the emotion penetrate myself fully. It was very happy when we have fun together and it was very painful for me when they left. I was very suffer at that time but I never regret, it was a wonderful and fantastic love lesson I have ever had :D

I have detached, because I have penetrated, I have understand and I have know the beauty of love.

To my mother, to my family, to my lover, to my friends, to my pass... I am who I am today because of you...
I love you :D