I always feel lost in the crowd surrounded by strangers...drowning...
I am trying to grab on somebody but I see no one for me.
Life journey is rather lonely.
I don't know anyone here.
I don't even know myself.
I am changing...taking up the appearance I wanna be...and slowly I forget who was me?
It doesn't matter...
I was told to be optimistic and I do believe I am.
But sometimes I am doubt... am I?
What's behind my laughter? who knows?
Or perhaps I am just too pessimistic to this world...
Nothing seems to bother me because reality is too sorry to be known.
Well, I am dying very soon.
And this is the reason cheers me.